Lake Jackson, Texas

Body Dysmorphia with Blue, 29 | Empowerment Boudoir Photography Near Houston Galveston Brazoria County

I've been fighting body dysmorphia the past 2 years. To this day, it's not uncommon for me to get to the dressing room and realize what I grabbed was at least 4 sizes too big because I just grabbed what lI thought LOOKED like my size. There's been such a mind fuck through my whole journey.

Why did I feel more sassy, comfortable and fucking bodacious when I was thicker? I felt like a goddess.

I wasn't afraid to go out in a skirt and crop top at 200 pounds. Why do I now have more insecurities than I did before? Society tells me I should be more confident at a smaller size, right?

I'm so thankful for the opportunity to work with Ashlee, and hope to work with her again in the future. Being a photographer who enjoys boudoir myself, I honestly can't believe I waited this long to have a full boudoir experience. Wait, I can. Because boudoir is expensive. Duh, I know.

If I had known how I would feel after, I would've paid the damn money and done it sooner.

These photos have been a gift. I'm still struggling to recognize myself in the photos, but damn do they make me feel powerful. And right now, that's a priceless gift. She did an amazing job of making me feel sexy and comfortable. From our first interaction to receiving the photos, she was encouraging and professional. She helped amp me up for the big day and delivered nothing but solid vibes and support when it was go-time.

My photos blew me away and have given me a renewed sense of boldness and color in my spirit that I thought I had lost.

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